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Katharine Strange's avatar

I love this. Definitely going to pick up this book. I've struggled so much with forgiveness/acceptance as a way of suppressing anger and blame.

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Sandra Ann Miller's avatar

This is great, Maggie. Thank you.

If you really want to get a party started, bring up the Buddhist theory of detachment around moms...even if they are Buddhists. They lose their minds. There's a lot of nuance in the teachings. "Forgiveness" is more a letting go with kindness...mostly to you. Like the whole Buddhist take on resentment, of it being like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die. The pain we feel has pretty much zero effect on the perpetrator(s). We have to detach from the feelings that are harming us. Now, that's not ignoring them or burying them, but letting them go, over and over; forgiving, over and over. That's not putting the blame or onus on the abused/estranged, but reminding us of the power we have. We have the power to move forward. We just have to jettison some baggage every now and then.

I've forgiven my parents. They are broken people doing what broken people do. And I've said "I'm sorry" to *myself* for letting that weigh on me the way it did. That's who the apology belongs to. I wish I knew better (when I was younger) how to let that go, see where the responsibility actually belonged, and release the hurt and disappointment of that abuse and neglect. But then you have all the folks telling you you're wrong for cutting ties, that's your only family and the whole, "You should be the bigger person," garbage. Both of my parents have asked for forgiveness. But they don't want to take responsibility for their actions. I even sent my father links to sites that would show him how to construct a proper apology. LOL. Nope. Not gonna happen. I'm still just too sensitive and need to get over it. I guess getting over it means releasing all of my boundaries and letting them in to shit all over the place again and again and... No thanks. I'm happier with standards. xo

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